For almost 2 years Nick & I have been consumed with starting a family. It's almost like we hit a pause button... we haven't done certain things or gone certain places because it could fall around an insemination time or an important appointment. After being told we have less than 1% chance of becoming pregnant, I felt totally ripped off... we paused everything for nothing. I picked up second jobs this past summer to help with the financial burden and didn't enjoy a much deserved summer break.
I notice we still do this-now it's just with money we work hard for. We better not buy that because we need to save, we better not redo that because we need money for IVF...
It's all a vicious cycle. We've decided to start living in the now... no more pausing. We will always have each other regardless of how much money we have and that is a blessing in itself.
To be upset over what you don't have is to waste what you do have. ~Ken S. Keyes, Jr
Lucy,
ReplyDeleteI find your new attitude very refreshing. Living in the present is good advice for all of us. I hope it will allow you to find enjoyment and happiness often. This reminds me of something my mom taught me growing up...be happy where you are, with what you have, and with what you are doing (I might have butchered that...but you get the idea!). Thinking of you...
Lindsay