Thursday, March 24, 2011

Grief

–noun
1.
keen mental suffering or distress over affliction or loss;sharp sorrow; painful regret.
2.
a cause or occasion of keen distress or sorrow.

I never knew it was possible to grieve something/someone that does not exist. I am grieving over a child I have never met. I have grieved before and found that over time, the pain lessened and the void was filled. That is not the case when a person longs for a child. It is not the type of pain that time heals. A favorite quote of mine: "Time heals what reason cannot." This whole infertility situation is the only time that quote has seemed like BS. There is a void in my heart, in my being.